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jelly thot

August 16, 2008 · Filed under baby post, happy :), picture message · Tagged candy thought, jelly belly

i heart you jelly much

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quote 104

August 15, 2008 · Filed under picture message, quote unquote · Tagged baby post, flowers

” where flowers bloom so does hope”

–Lady Bird Johnson, Where Flowers Bloom

(taken at san francisco flower mart)

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maraming salamat po!

August 8, 2008 · Filed under happy :), picture message · Tagged blog hits, blog stat

(looks very similar to my ECG results he he he)

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quick update

August 6, 2008 · Filed under happy :), the "l" chronicles · Tagged bone marrow biopsy, rainbow

Got the results of my bone marrow biopsy last week. I’m still doing good. Thank God!

I’ve spiked a fever a few days ago, was given liquid paracetamol and now doing and feeling great!

SCT preparations are still in progress.

I’m done with my appointments with the dentist, dermatologist and eye doctor

I’m pressing on and keeping the faith as I hold on to God’s promises while enjoying His countless blessings

I sincerely appreciate all the prayers, comments, kind words, sms, emails and e-cards that I’ve been receiving from, mostly people i hardly knew. thank you so much for appreciating this blog, for believing in me and for joining me in this journey

I’m holding on to “my rainbow after the rain” and I’m not letting go!

God is so good!

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You Know Better Than I

August 1, 2008 · Filed under happy :), my emotions on video, the "l" chronicles · Tagged You Know Better Than I

To you my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ—I re-dedicate my life

Have your way in me

Your will be done!

(thank you to pastor eric maliwat for giving this song. God bless po)

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faithful

July 28, 2008 · Filed under happy :), picture message · Tagged chinese bible verse, full moon, hebrews 10:23

” Let us hold firmly to the hope we claim to have. The One who promised is faithful”

Hebrews 10:23

(full moon at san francisco bay)

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Jiu (九)

July 27, 2008 · Filed under a piece of me, baby post, happy :), picture message · Tagged chinese for 9, jade crane, lipton tea, twinnings tea

9 is my favorite number at the moment………wink!

9 favorite movies (in random)

9 things that i do in the morning

my morning prayer

go to the bathroom

read Our Daily Bread/devotion

get blood for cbc/temp/bp

call/text “someone” to say good morning

breakfast

take medicine

pt/ot

go online (in case i’m feeling better and not sleepy/dizzy)

9 things that i do when i’m bored

i sleep

i play crisis core (final fantasy VII) or gran turismo 4 in my psp

i look at “someone’s” pictures/slideshow on my laptop and day dream that we are together

i listen to the music of hillsong australia

i sit near the window and observe things outside

i read a good book

i go online to update my blog and to check my mails

i count female sheeps (ha ha ha)

i go to either the mall or the park

9 things that i do before i go to sleep

i put my mobile on silent mode

i take my vitamins/medicines

i fix my bed

i brush my teeth

i take a shower

i fix myself (i wear either a boxer or pajama or jersey and a shirt)

i call/text “someone” to say goodnight

sometimes i go online

i say my good night/thank you prayer to the Lord

9 favorite songs at the moment

miracles by kenny lattimore

i was born to love you by eric carmen

who am i by casting crowns

always be my baby by david cook

fairy tale by michael wang

when God made you by newsong and natalie grant

you bring me joy by anita baker

wonder by steve mcpherson

magnificent by tulele of hillsong australia

9 favorite cartoon/anime character

jamie robinson of voltes five

the sailor man

the cookie monster

erica of daimos

bugs bunny

tifa of final fantasy VII

son gohan

spiderman

stripperella

9 fave scents

luciano soprani

Dolce & Gabbana Cologne for men

polo sport

axe phoenix

cool water

johnson’s baby cologne regular

joop jump

nenuco cologne

crave by ck

9 favorite gifts

9 is happy! 9 is just getting better!

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getting impatient….

July 25, 2008 · Filed under the "l" chronicles · Tagged bone marrow aspiration, bone marrow biopsy

i still don’t have the results of my bone marrow biopsy/aspiration and i’m getting impatient. i can’t help but worry about a lot of things.

the results are of such great importance as it will determine the next step for my sct. if there’s no leukemic cells present in the marrow then we proceed with the transplant, but if its the other way around then i’ll have to go back to chemo. (sigh sigh sigh).

our bone marrow is a soft spongy tissue found inside the larger bones in our body. they contain stem cells that turn into blood cells. biopsy is a process of removing a tissue sample from the body for examination. aspiration, on the other hand, is the drawing of the liquid portion of the bone marrow by a hollow needle. in my case, several samples were taken so there were painful unexplainable stings that traveled down to my legs.

i hope i get the results early next week and i’m praying that its a good one so i could proceed with my sct. please do keep me in your prayers as i go through this stage of my treatment.

here are some photos during my bone marrow biopsy/aspiration.

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you bring me joy

July 21, 2008 · Filed under baby post, happy :), my emotions on video · Tagged anita baker, joy of lex, you bring me joy

You bring me joy
When I’m down
So much joy
When I lose my way your love comes smiling on me
I saw your face
And then I knew
We would be friends
I was so afraid, but your arms, they’d say ‘come to me’

So I’d say to you
“Can we talk for a while?”
You’d say “alright”
When you love me, I smile
I feel your hands and you feel mine
You bring me joy

You bring me joy
Don’t go too far away
If I can’t see your face, I will remember that smile

But can this be right
Or should we be friends
I get lonely sometimes and I’m mixed up again
‘Cause you’re the finest thing I’ve seen in all my life
You bring me joy

My joy, my joy
I believe this is gonna be what you want it to be
I just love you, I just love you, can’t you see
That you’re the best I’ve seen in all my life
You bring me joy

My joy… you’re my joy
My joy… my, my joy

Thank you, baby, thank you, baby
I just love you, baby
When I lose my way, your love comes smiling on me

you bring me joy/anita baker

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standing beside me

July 18, 2008 · Filed under happy :), muni-muni, the "l" chronicles · Tagged bernal heights, standing on the promise, two trees picture

LORD, sometimes, I feel like my world is getting smaller and my burdens are getting bigger. Every time this kind of feeling comes and overwhelms me, I can’t help but wonder on how long must I wait for that moment where I would no longer need to wear a mask, no more needles, no more chemotherapy, no more leukemic blast, no AML—– I am clean, healthy, leukemia-free for the rest of my life!

But i just realized that all throughout this journey You’ve carried me through and You’ve shown me that Your promises are real, Your love is never ending and Your grace is sufficient. You’ve shown me countless times that these are all but part of Your great plan for me. And the only thing that You want is for me to trust you and keep my faith.

Thank you Lord. I’m standing on your promises. And it feels great to know that I’m not standing in this place alone…..YOU are here……i know…….You are standing beside me.

( view from the attic, bernal heights)

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of stc prep and birthdays

July 16, 2008 · Filed under happy :), picture message, the "l" chronicles, they help me breathe · Tagged fisherman's wharf, lime tree restaurant, the aquarium

Preparation for my stem cell transplant officially started last week!

I’m done with my bone marrow biopsy and although the final analysis won’t be ready until early next week, my oncologist informed me that the initial pathology review was very encouraging. Although the procedure went well, I was “glued” to my bed for 2 days as my hip was sore. (my marrow samples were extracted from my right rear hip bone).

Good thing i was back home in time for Mommy’s birthday last July 14. We had dinner at Lime Tree, a restaurant that serves Southeast Asian Cuisine.

Because of my “restricted diet” I wasn’t able to try their famous roti pratha and curry noodle. I just had a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice, a very small serving of tofu and mushrooms in olive oil and a half serving of potato cake. Bitin. Bitin.

Cheers to the best Mom in the world! Happy Birthday Mommy! Words are not enough to express my gratitude for your selfless love and devotion. I know we’ve been through a lot and your strength and faith are keeping the family intact. I can’t thank God enough for giving you to me. I love you so much Mommy.

The next day was another big day as my “baby bro” Godo celebrated his 20 plus birthday (he he he he). we went to fisherman’s wharf for lunch, went window shopping (he he he) at pier 39 and then visited the bay aquarium.

As expected, the place was full people and the restaurants are on-SRO. I think we waited for almost 45 minutes for a table. Nevertheless, I really had a great time exploring the area.

Although the trip has practically drained my energy I felt really great because somehow I am now at a “normal” place, living and moving as a “normal” person. I’m experiencing the crowd again, appreciating God’s creation and enjoying a great time with my family. (I’m missing someone though, sigh).

some pictures at the bay aquarium:

Today, I have a scheduled spinal tap at 11am and more tests are scheduled the coming days so please keep me in your prayers. Thank you to those who made comments in some of the entries. I really appreciate it and It really lifts my spirit. God bless all of you. (I’ll answer them all next time promise!)

As I always say…..the journey from brokenman to betterman….continues!! aja! aja! aja!

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